Just realised that my competition got shifted to this afternoon.
I wonder how I'll fare.
Usually, I'll set certain standards for myself
But this time, I'm not even hoping for anything.
I'm so certain I'll just jump fucked up distances again.
I guess its better to not expect anything cause if I ever screw up anything(again), at least I won't be too disappointed, right?

I wish I can start believing in myself again